I certainly didn’t expect that motherhood wouldn’t wait for me. Although, I am the most stubborn and impatient person I know so why would I wait for anything? A driver in front of me taking a little longer than necessary to pull away at a roundabout just sets me off. But nothing would have prepared me for this. My pregnancy was a struggle, I’m not going to lie. I had so many thoughts and ideas and decisions and voices and everyone else’s opinions on MY LIFE running through my mind and crashing into everything else that I eventually lost my way a little. Seeing my daughter for the first time? I immediately found my way back.
I haven’t blogged in a while. The truth is, I’ve been to busy being a mother and girlfriend that I just didn’t have the time. My family amaze me every day and I want to spend every spare minute I have with THEM. Lily was born on the 18th of March 2012 at 10.45am weighing 7lbs and 15 1/2 ounces. 10 months later she is nearly walking and talking and has myself and her dad running around after 24/7. If I could I would give everything up to be with her all the time. But being a parent doesn’t stop me from achieving the things in my life that I want to achieve. I am finally getting back into the journalism game and have applied for four work experience placements in the past two days alone! I hope to fit in some time with the Press Association and advance my interest in photography over the coming months so watch this space! I am making good use of my new camera at last. All pictures of Lily of course but that’s not the point… shes too gorgeous not to photograph!
Contrary to what some people think, not all teenage parents are claiming benefits and making nothing of their lives.
I am many things now. A mother, a teenager, a girlfriend, a daughter sister and a friend, a driver, a dancer, a cafe assistant, a student and a writer. I want to write more than anything else and being a parent will not stop me from achieving my dreams. Lily and Calum enhance my life, not hinder it. I sometimes wonder what life without Lily would be like. It would be no life at all. I’m not the girl I was when I was 16 anymore, I’m much more than that. I’ve come so far in the past year and 2013 is shaping up to be incredible already. Two gigs in the next 7 days, Lilys 1st birthday and a trip to Dublin in March, Paris, Ibiza, TITP, a family holiday and my cousins hen night AND wedding in the summer as well as graduating my second year of uni?! It’s a good life and being a mother is only just the beginning, not the end. Good things may come to those who wait but I for one am certainly not prepared to wait. Work hard and make goals for yourself. Have ambition. Live your dreams. But most importantly, have fun…